melancholy again.

having the melancholy mood again.
this feeling will come visit me every now and then.

you probably dunno it.
im actually not as chirpy/cheerful/optimistic as i appear to be.
just somehow hiding behind a facade of happy go lucky.

the only things that perks me up are:
ktvs/holidays/eating/mahjong/pontoon.

let's talk about eating.
an expert once said that life is all about eating.
and that expert is known as a certain Mr. Chua
i mean who doesnt love good food right ?
yet my appetite is a bit too big for my own liking.
over eat = fat = ppl mock at you.
if only no.8 pawn shop exist.
i will go pawn all my FATS away.
its surely weights a hell of a lot ?
as i cant stand mockery, im not enjoying my food.

ktv.
its pathetic isnt it ?
cuz of a poor vocal can only hide in a room to sing ?
anw, they say singing out loud is a good way to vent your frustrations.
true to a certain extend i guess.
and its been a month since ive gone to ktv.
but ktvs are so expensive these days.

holidays are one of my loves.
cuz you get to see life outside singapore.
eat what you cant eat in singapore.
do what you cant do in singapore.
i mean holiday what ?
you can do what you normally dont do in singapore ?
then again, extravagant trips are not likely in 2011.
hopefully one good trip in 2012.
before the world ends.

mahjong.
from young ive been watching my parents play.
every single weekend.
but ironically, i only started playing when i was 15yo.
and its not until 18yo when i really know how to play.
since then i was hooked onto it.
cuz i dunno what is losing in mj.
either i lose this week win back next week,
or i break even/lose little.
lose $10+ $20+ not considered lose right ?
alicia still used to call me 将神。
want what tile will have what tile.
ok i know i was probably lucky on those occasions.
anw, can say is i dont rem losing mj in nett at all.
until recently.
lost 340 to yanping's fren.
over two times.
and the first time is lost $200.
after dividing by 2.
i clear drawer you know ?
leonard chua FUCKING CLEAR DRAWER.
clear drawer still must borrow chips.
that is so insulting.
it's a disgrace. a SHAME !
recently play with jane they all also no win.
mahjong seem to have lost its meaning alr.

pontoon.
ok im getting sick of blogging.
you all know the catastrophic aftermath pontoon has landed me in.
another 19k to go.
very fast one.
hang in there leo.
you can do it.

see. there is nothing to be happy about.
at the moment that is.
when i clear my debts prolly end of the yr,
the world is ending.

how to feel happy ?

at this point of time,
hai li gor MOMENT,
zao hai sek yin geh shi how la~~