Dreams

can you believe in waking up 3 times,
in the span of only 5hrs slp ?!?!?

nb. just wtf is wrong.
this problem is back to haunt me.
cant slp.
i miss the days i slept like a pig.

all 3times all diff dreams also.
first time i dream of chew long.
he was my sec sch classmate.
we werent exactly close or whatsoever.
but he was a good fren.
jiang yi qi type.
wow chew long ! i wonder if he's dead.

second time i dreamt of my dear buibui.
aka kl.
ever since she started GE, she like no time for me.
my poly joy 80% came from her can ?
like last time i always waiting for her at bus stop.
Leo: where are you !!!!
kl: i reach liao i RUSHING over.
then i see opposite one fat girl slowly walking.
with a can of nescafe in her hand.
taking her bloody own sweet time.
cross over the road liao:
Hi shuai ge, lets smoke first.
that's why we were always late.
wow kl.. let's meet up soon.

ok last dream was about ss.
back to some sec sch stuff again.
seems i cant let go of my student life eh ?
the last time i saw mr liang was his bday.
is he still alive as well ?
hahhaha

maybe mr zhou is letting me meet frens only in dreams la ?
hahaha..

cb i want to 发钱寒。 not 发朋友寒。
what i need at this moment is MONEY.
let me strike TOTO pls pls pls.
dont let me dream of it hor !
i want it to be a reality.

and so i decided not to carry on sleeping.
dont want to dream of a fourth person.
i then did some mother/son bonding with mdm chng.

talk talk talk then realise even my younger bro is going.
including my two cousins.
so it's like a mini family trip.
without me.

nb I WAS THE ONE who suggested Taiwan few months ago la.
then now they going without me.
SHUAI !
ever since ROC ive been wanting to go again.
just that becuz ive been there, it was nv a priority.
but i also want to go one ma !!!
how can they leave me behind ???

why ppl always leave me out of things ?
i so unworthy meh ???
but when ppl rem me i will be grateful.
keep telling them: you so nice !!!!
although it sounds fake la, but it's real !
hahaha

唉。。 亲情没有，爱情没有，友情也没有。 更加没有钱！！！

what's the point of living ?
this is my last post liao.
adieu